Dear Diary, Today I convinced myself it doesn’t care to give up, don’t take risks, stay in status quo. No drams ’cause it was not the time. But in fact, that’s false reasons. I’ve not been honest with myself, I’ve hidden the truth... And the truth is... That I’m scared Stefan. I’m scared if I allowed myself to be free, to be happy during one more moment... And the world should be crashing down... I don’t know if I can survive that.